wax melts and reforms 
my skin itches and my hands are damp
figures appear in the corner of my eye
i sink into the furniture

ascending like vapour
i would crawl on my knees
for a feeling of apathy
but i assist the worthless
they're never grateful
i assist the worthless

corresponding with the sky
you beat like a multitude of ants
flat on your red stomach
in a city of perpetual growth

i communicate through my fingers
seek consolation in drawings
pick up markings from water
make my music in the dust

 
  break, break my door down
  confiscate my one love
  take, take my arms off
  they're wrapped around my pictures

  now get out of my room
  stumbling punch drunk
  i will hurt you
  heil purity
  heil equality
 
  paint, paint your posture
  strip down your uniform
  fake, fake my happiness
  comeuppance with real grace

   
    she said
    "no child of mine will ever leave me"
    and i said "goodbye" as i walked to the door
    then she pulled out a revolver
    and wrestled me to the floor

     i'm ashamed, incest is such a disgrace
    my mother shot me in the face
    in school i was so out of place
    with my perverted mother at the gates

    she said
   "no child of mine will be unfaithful"
    i said "mother i'm too old to sleep with you"
    now she's no top of me and i'm screaming
    as blood pours from and open wound

 
 A tendency to resonate, howl as you will.
 A thirst that’s astounding, come chew at the fists.
 Create your delusion. Seek comfort in me.
 But it will be soon dear.  I will want to leave.

 This is how it’s meant to feel to be alive.
 Trust me and keep your hopes on the side.
 Dependency is a habit you must discard.
 You’re alone dear friend and it must be hard.

  Release each breath as you cower and moan.
 Enjoy every second, make this misery your home.
 Divide all your attention like you’ve never felt my skin.
 Ignore your inner monologue and really drink this in.